The Awkward

Life is SOO awkward... am I right, or that just me?I mean "That Awkward Moment When.." rolls through my head and my newsfeed ALL the time. The awkwardness of talking to people you don't know very well, the awkwardness when your mom doesn't believe you aren't dating (insert friend's name) because you spend so much time with them, awkwardness when your mom then feels the need to recite the "rules" to you because of said friend. The awkwardness of being sang to for your birthday. There is this awkwardness of wanting something you can't have and of saying something at the wrong moment. It can all be so weird and sometimes the BEST, but other times the worst. AND SOMETIMES there is just this confusion and you have no idea what to say or do.

Awkward can be funny. I LOVE funny awkward, it's like my day-to-day ritual. This is where you take a perfectly normal and un-weird moment and MAKE it awkward. Like, a song is playing on the radio and you turn to the person next to you and serenade them with inappropriate lyrics. OR saying something totally out of line and throwing an unnecessary shoulder-rub at the end. When you are the one purposely making the awkward  happen, its freaking hilarious! I don't know, there is something about being a creeper that entertains me. Awkward can be NOT SO FUNNY as well, even though usually when you look back it actually is funny, but in the moment, not so much. For me, this includes the examples given above, but when someone else is doing them to me, especially when strangers do... But the absolute worst awkwardness comes when you can't ignore something and don't know how to react. This is so frustrating to me, I just get mad...

I can be super witty sometimes and save myself, but when I'm completely caught off guard and left standing there dumbfounded (a jaw dropped, eye twitching, baffled dumbfounded!!!). I HATE IT! What do you even do when you are just put on the spot out of nowhere. e.g. a lot of people don't have this problem but I do, about talking to my mother about anything personal. It took me forever to be comfortable asking her to buy me tampons, I hate telling her about relationships or crushes or anything sexual... Geez, maybe it really is just
ME, but it's a real problem. I can talk about ANYTHING to other people (friends, teachers, strangers) but I can't to my family. Not because I don't trust them but I don't know how to let them know things. It's so difficult. And I try to avoid situations with all of my power, to a point where I am literally hiding from them, but sometimes they just ask a question or make a comment that makes me  uncomfortable.

If you do know what I'm talking about, if you do have these problems, I'd love to know I'm not alone. And I'm just telling you all this because I feel like it, even though I know what I have to do in such situations. I think I'll share this information with you, in fact. You see, some very nice ladies once said to "own the awkward." Make it yours. Those uncomfortable situations are only as awkward as you make them, and it is very possible for you to turn them into those other more humorous moments. Just do what you have to do, say whatever it is that needs to be said and OWN that shiz.
Mom: Are you dating that friend you go everywhere with because you sure spend a lot of time together and you know the rules where you can't cuddle on the couch and no sex and if you are going to have sex talk to me and use protection and blah blah BLAH! (notice lack of punctuation because she doesn't stop!)
You: DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT MOM! We aren't dating and I will tell if we or anybody else are. I know the rules. AND I NEED TAMPONS, THANK YOU!

No biggie right? LIES! It's pretty difficult, but if you act like it isn't, like it's totally normal, you'll be fine. And the moment will pass and your cheeks will return back to normal from being flaming red and it's all good. Own the awkward, whether a funny situation or not. Life IS awkward, and you can't exactly eliminate the turtle from your life, but you can control it.

On a completely separate note, remember me telling you about that super-rad musician? Her fundraiser only has 17 hours to go, and we are SO close to the goal for her to make 2.5 new records! I WANT THIS!
Also I have (have had for a while) a Tumblr, and am now trying to keep up with it and make it cooler, feel free to check it out! (it's full of my obsessions) I think there was something else but I don't remember so have a grand ole day!