Estrogen.

Let. Me. Tell. You.
Not even going to try to apologize for not writing when I said I would. I'm tired of apologizing. I'll write when I have time. I'll write when i feel like it. Like right now. Lol. Write now. And I'm pushing back my fish spiel another week because I need to let some emotional distress out today.

I'm way waaaaayyyy too emotional. It's ridiculous and annoying. Now, usually I can control it. But that one stupid week of the month when my hormones are on fire, I can't be held responsible for my ridiculousness. Last night I stayed up to finish The Mockingjay, and at then end I started crying. All three of the books made me cry a bit and choke up a lot, but not like this. I cried through the last three chapters of the book, finished it, and then cried myself to sleep. In pathetic. I mean it was good but my reaction was pathetic. And I hate myself when I think of ever crying myself to sleep....

And this morning. DEAR BUDDHA I'VE BEEN A WRECK. I was takin my puppy on a walk and these two huge dog run up to us, too fast for me to react, and attacked my little baby! She's okay. No wounds or punctures or anything. But we were both terrified out of our minds. She was wailing a scared puppy dog wail. And the were in top of her and I couldn't pull them off and I couldn't get to her. Finally their owner come up and pulls them off. I grabbed my puppy and run, completely in tears. I ran to the end of the street with her and sat down in the corner to make sure she was okay. She is. Her little tail was tucked in between her legs and she peed on herself, but I can't blame her I would have done the same thing if I had had to pee. And I was shaking and rocking and crying with her in my arms. I couldn't walk the other half a mile home and called my mon to come get us.... The man came and apologized. But. Fuck. I've been shaken up all day.


And to add on top of it all, I'm late. We are going to Austin this week. I'm uber excited because I get to spend the entire week somewhere I love. I show my steer the beginning of the week, my heifer at the end. And the rest of the time I'm free to be in Austin. But we are late. Late to unload, late to check in, late. And one thing that drives me crazy, that will put me into an anxiety attack, is being late. So the normal anxiety of being late plus to enhanced emotions, makes me a wreck. An in trying not to tear up more, I'll probably take a nap when I'm done writing this so my mind won't stay on it. But man, I can't handle more disaster....

Stuff and Things and Whatnot

I don't know what happened. I just stopped. Stopped everything. Stopped facebooking, stopped tweeting, stopped tumblring, and stopped blogging. Everything social networking wise, stopped, and I was kind of letting myself disappear. That's not good though. For reasons I'm not prepared to announce, social networking is a good thing for me. And it's not that I haven't had the time to post things, I just haven't had anything to say. Nothing that's worth anyone's time at least. But I'm going to try and pretend like my life is more interesting, and say something starting now.

First off, this post is simply talking about things going on in my life. It will be in three sections, each a different topic. And I will be returning tomorrow for a more interesting blog about marine life... kinda.

I've become a victim of a few bandwagons. Like. Have you guys read The Hunger Games?!?! I decided to about a week ago, and I am now obsessed!! I've never been like this about a book series, well not since Nancy Drew books in elementary... I saw all the Harry Potter's, and read a book or two, and I liked it but I am in no way a Potterhead. Twilight, no. But THE HUNGER GAMES OWN MY HEART. I'm almost done with the last book, and that's the quickest I've ever read anything. I'm generally a sloooowwww reader. But I could not put these books down. I'll be in Austin for a heifer show when the movie comes out, but hopefully I can steal away from my farmer life for a few hours to go see it. Well. I wouldn't discuss the books here and ruin it for anyone who hasn't read them. But. You. Need. To. Read. Them. I'm so giddy talking about them, I've forgotten what the other bandwagon I was going to talk about was....
OH YEAH! Drawsomething. Most games I roll my eyes  and make fun of the people who play it, but I like this one. If you don't have or know of this game, it's like a Word with Friends but Pictionary style. And if you do play, feel free to make a game with me: tay4cookie

It's Spring Break... And even though I'm not going to school, it doesn't feel like Spring Break. And the week is going by super-dee-duper fast! I have something planned for everyday, but then I also have no plans... That makes no sense, I know, but I'm not going to take the time to explain. Hmmm, I haven't seen much of anyone other than my family and my Ag people though... Nope. I've been more on the getting-scholarships-filled-out and staying-in-my-room and playing-with-my-puppy side of the break... I need to do some essay shiz for English though. And light a fire under this darn environmental science online course.. because I need it to graduate and all... But next Monday I leave for Austin, and am spending the entire week there. Soooo, it gives me an excuse to further procrastinate... This paragraph ended up not being about much at all...

I can't remember if I've ever expressed on  here how much FFA is to me... I've talked about it a little bit, but I don't think I've said it all. I'm not going to right now. I'll go look and make sure I don't already have a post about it, and then push the topic to the top of my blog writing list to post in the next few weeks. But. I am going to point out that our banquet is the 3rd of April. And it will be time for me to retire my President position. And I have to give a speech and do all kinds of other things. But. I. Can't. I get emotional every time I think about it, and I've been thinking about it for way to long... I don't want that part of my life to be over just yet... Because sometimes I feel like I won't be anything anymore.... Like that is what makes me who I am, and without it I'm nobody... Okay. Gonna stop talking about it before I upset myself...

This post ended up being less than I imagined, but once again I'm left with nothing to say... It's so weird because all of my life I've had something to say. Even though when there are many many times where I don't say it, It's still there, in my mind. But. Today, yesterday, last week, nothing.... Sooo.
Make sure you see The Lorax if you haven't. Have a Great Spring Break. Keep Rockin'

See you TOMORROW!