Ahh!! Blog, how I've missed you!!! I apologize for neglecting you. I've had a major lack of inspiration... On multiple occassions I've attempted to write things that ended up boring me so much I couldn't even finish them! But I promise to give you more attention, even as the school year begins and I get loaded with homework. I will make time for you. And hopefully the school year will bring interesting things to talk about. Speaking of school, oh my freaking greif, school starts tomorrow.
Its goodbye summer 2011, an incredible vacation filled with self-discovery, unbelievable experiences, priceless memories made with friends, and much much more. Hello school year. Senior Year!!! Its the beginning of the end, and I couldn't be more pumped! I'm so darn pumped that I'm up blogging about it instead of getting sleep that later in the year will be so precious. Yeah right, NOBODY can sleep the night before school starts. From students of all grades to the teachers, everybody is wide awake with their head on their pillow. Our minds run in circles, thinking about everything and everybody. And even us seniors, who have done this since age six, have that nervous feeling in their gut. Heck, I'm typing this in my bed, contacts already taken out, with my phone because I'm so excited but my stomach is filled with butterflies and all that jazz. First days of school are that day when you don't know what to expect. You see people you haven't for 3 months. You are around people you have yet to meet even though you been in the same school for years. First days are sometimes the most nerve wrecking. Right now I'm wondering what classes and teachers I have, what friends will I see, what should I wear?!? But pass the anxiety of it all, new years mean new starts and new opportunities, and to me that is super fun.
I have a lot of expectations for my last year of highschool. This doesn't include becoming homecoming or prom queen, being valdictorian, or getting everything my way. However, I do expect some pretty incredible things. This year will test relationships. I have my circle of friends, and I love them all dearly, but it seems unlikely that we ALL will stay intouch after graduation. It would take true effort. And I'm willing to put forward effort to anybody and everybody who is willing to do the same. So this year I'll be able to see who that is. I also expect to make the most valuable memories of highschool this year. I already have some pretty incredible ones, so it'll be tough, but this year should top them all. I expect to be less stressed about classes this year, but stressed enough by AP classes to keep me going strong. And I could go on and on with my expectations, but won't...
As a freshman, and since then, I've always been involved with students who were older than me. I've never been scared by the seniors. I don't wish to scare underclassmen, but I do plan to run shit. For me, everything has fallen into place to make up a perfect set up for this year. Well, nothing fell into place, I worked my ass off to get where I am. But I've accomplished all my plans. President of FFA, check. Top ten percent of class, check. Amazing friends and relationships, check. So there is no reason I shouldn't, we shouldn't, run the school. This wish of mine is in no way about popularity or any bullcrap. That stuff doesn't matter, because when it all comes down to it, this is only highschool, not life. But what I mean is that things should be easy, things should go our way.
I apologize for how I'm jumping around so much through this post. Like I said, my contacts are out, and I'm just typing all the things on my mind that are keeping me awake. All I really want to say is how excited I am to finally be a senior. I look forward to every moment I get to spend with my friends, to every class I get to love or hate, to every night I sacriface sleep to work. I look forward to a year of emotional rollercoasters of the bittersweetness of preparing to end highschool. Although I say how I can't wait for college, the truth is I've liked highschool. Graduation isn't coming a day too soon or a day to late. When the time comes, I'll go. But until then I plan on making this year the best one ever. I've done this so many times. The first day of school. The whole shabang... I might as well make my last time tower over previous years in levels of awesomeness. I know what I'm going to wear in the morning, but I've no idea what else lies ahead. Let's run this mutha, rock this year, Class of 2012, we're finally here!!!
Goodnight.
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